Heh, I stumbled across her blog. Wonderful. Now, if only I could send him the link.

Love, you are not trying hard enough. Take a deep breath and start walking again, it will be easier with every step you take. Right now, it seems bleak, but life is full of surprises, no? Be brave, you have always listened to me, why stop listening now?

Moments that makes me wanna drop my brave smile and run into the comfort of your arms. For what was worth, I did love you with all my heart at one point in life. Please reassure me and tell me that I am doing something right in life this time around. *pout*

Nobody told me life's surprises would include cheating boyfriend(s). Hmm. Contemplations, denials, more contemplations, and ultimately choices. Either way, one party is bound to get hurt. If only a band aid could mend all the boo-boo's in the world right. If only I wasn't so wooly minded and more sensible. :)

WAH, must exclaim loudly in an over exaggerated tone. You so stupid wan ah. Dense like jengga wood blocks wan ah. OMFG. Then use finger to prod the head. U never use this wan ah. Why so big hint also cannot go thru. Then use knuckles to give head a little rap. Then again Wah. So emptly like milo gong like that. ( its empty milo tin can in teochew. ) Then finally one last Wah. Like that also u say like, then i mai need to get married with every man i come accross with. wtf wtf.. Boxed up moron. - -lll Go home to ur kampung and stay  in a chicken coop la ban.

p/s: yeaps, thats what im gonna do if i come across that sorry excuse of a fool again.

Happy 22nd Birthday love, many happy wishes to come, many laughters and joy to share. I cherish moments like these. It makes me warm and fuzzy like pj's and choc. Many more to come no? :)

p.s: Funny how things grow onto you, and how things irk me 1 day later. Its like a momentarily lapse of good judgement. I hope things fall in place soon. Its eating me up like a disease! And funny how sometimes people have the brain density of a hippo's ass. Maybe its kinda my fault that things turn out this way. Pft. Too late to point fingers now. Am looking forward to the boy, and the girl visiting soon. :)

im maidless. for one week. the first day without kakak made me grumpy the first thing in the morning. swt. i mean i do take things for granted. the mess i leave in the house. amazing. i woke up, sat on the breakfast table, waiting for my maid to ask me what beverage do i wanna have. like those tea lady that asks u politely :" coffee or tea? " with a charming smile. mine has an indo accent but nevertheless she still makes my drinks with love =D

then i went off, came back. and my room is dirty. yerr. bath towels on the floor. jeans lying on the chair, one on the floor rolled up looking like twisty bread, laundry at the corner next to my rubbish bin. heheh im rather messy for a girl. and the toilet basin has mascara, sunscreen and used facial cottons. my contact lens case is open, no wonder i get eye infection so often lol. eyelash curler on top of the conditioner cover. blusher next to make up remover. so dirty. doesnt even smell lemony.

and my table! zomg. i have no space. so i put my books on the bed. and later when i need to sleep i'll put it on the chair. and it will rotate like that till kakak comes back *sob*

kitchen has plenty of boots-drools next to where i usually sit at the dining table. now i know why my dad doesnt allow me to feed her at home cos she drools like a dog. DUH! but the nice kakak is always so nice to mop the kitchen again after we eat. parents went out for wedding dinner. so i ate roti bakar for dinner. heheh. 

and now my bed is unmade. and i dont like to sleep on unmade bed cos its not snuggly. so i might sleep with my parents. hehee on their bed. cos mum made her bed. so its gonaa be snuggly.

and my mum has been pestering me to clean my room, so i told her she had Accute Nag-arisma Disease. a disease that causes mothers to nag non stop. =) sometimes, i amuse myself. more of syiok sendiri to be precise. nite!